I realized there’s no point in going down into that pit until I actually know what I’m dealing with. So today on my lunch break I decided to be proactive and search for articles that pertain to injuries and grief. God I love the Internet! Look at this great article.
And tonight I was reminded that other things make me just as happy as running:
We all know I experienced some major grief after my husband died (and frankly I think it sort of complicates all losses in my life hence me being a drama queen over this foot ailment), so if I could get through that, surely I could get through a few missed races.
So I thought I’d take a positive spin on this all and present to you a list:
10 things I love to do other than running
1. Hang with my dog
good morning
2. Eat sweets
3. Enjoy a sunset
Sunset and a doodle
4. Take pictures
5. Wear a Tiara
6. Laugh so hard that I cry
7. Drink wine
8. Stop and smell the roses carnations
9. Drink Coffee
10. Hug a friend
Question:Tell me what 10 things you would still enjoy doing if you couldn’t run.
I worked from home yesterday to rest my foot and also because I was finally able to make an appointment with my primary care doc (a.k.a. the “gatekeeper”).
Duncan was thrilled that I was home so he could nap confidently
I am just gonna vent for a minute about health insurance and the stinkin’ protocol about having to see your primary care physician before you can go anywhere else. Needless to say had I just taken myself to the emergency room on Saturday it might have cost me a heftier copay but at least I’d already have had my X-ray or whatever and know what I’m dealing with. Instead I got to cry Saturday and Sunday before even getting to make an appointment with my primary care doc (who has no idea how much running means to me and hasn’t seen me since 2012 when I sprained my ankle so he really doesn’t even remember me…..and let’s not get me started on filling out paper work every god damned time I go in there. Really? the information is on the insurance card that you just made a copy of yet I have to fill out a form too? And why do I need to write my name, address, birthday, SS# etc 3 times? Can’t I just write “ditto”? I am the patient, the responsible party and the insured. Sheesh!!!! Good thing I didn’t fracture my hand.) #RantOver
And to add insult to injury I had to get on the scale for the nurse last night too.
the Devil
147! That’s a 5 pound weight gain since the marathon 2 weeks ago. At this rate I’ll be featured on the next episode of My 600 Pound Life before my foot is better. #exaggeratingnotexaggerating
And here’s where I’m going with this. I have always struggled with weight/body image issues. Not only does running allow me to get through the “small stuff” but it really helps keep my self-esteem and body image issues in check. I’m so worried that without running I’ll have a major emotional meltdown. It’s already started.
they look the same. you’d never know one hurts more.
So the doc agreed it didn’t seem like an ankle sprain because he could twist it all directions without me feeling pain. I explained my theory of tendonitis but he seemed to think that wouldn’t bother the outside of my foot although I disagree. Basically I don’t believe him but he suspects a stress fracture that might have been there for a while and the marathon finally aggravated it. In any event I now have to wait for the referral to be approved by my insurance, then make an appointment with the podiatrist and then see what that reveals which means Brooklyn Half Marathon is not happening for me (only 29,999 runners now). I feel so isolated already. All my friends will be running and I won’t be there. I thought about cheering for them at the finish but I think it’s too soon for me….my head is not in that space. The following week is a 5 miler in Spring Lake NJ (I already received my bib for it too!). Maybe I’ll be able to go down for that one to cheer. Otherwise there will be a big wine and chocolate party at my house and you’re all invited!
I know I’m not the only one sidelined at the moment and I know this isn’t life threatening but I’m just really sad and not sure how I’m going to deal with all this. I had surgery for a non running related issue back in the fall of 2012 and was unable to run or do much of any exercise for 4 weeks and I got through it, so I know I am strong enough to deal with this. I just have to get to the acceptance stage. LOL!
I’ll post more when I know more.
Question: If you could do one thing to cheer me up what would it be? Are you a good patient? Or do you go nuts?
Yup. I’m at an all time low. And it’s ok. I just have to get it out so I’ve invited myself to a pity party for 1 tonight. Well Duncan has already crashed the party =)
Rest in Peace Lambchop!
So this morning I headed out to Brooklyn to meet up with my running peeps for a 5K and some additional pre-race miles as well.
it was super foggy on the Verrazano Bridge this morning
Lisa’s new apartment….A tree grows in Brooklyn (and a Mike hides behind it). Thanks Elvia for the pic.
Lisa, me and Mike (thanks Elvia for the pic). This was before we started running and my ankle felt good (hence the smile).
We started out from Lisa’s house and headed to JD’s house via a loop of the park making it 4 miles. From the first step my ankle felt “uncomfortable” but it wasn’t pain, just achy. We arrived at JDs and had a little breakfast and chit chat before walking to the starting line for the family-friendly PTA 5k in Prospect Park.
walking to the start
Elvia and Lisa =)
JD’s daughter brought her scooter and her adorable disney helmet adorned with a dandelion =)
As soon as we started walking to the starting line I noticed I was limping. I figured maybe the ankle just stiffened up but when the race began and I tried to run I was pretty much shut down as I felt pain at this point. So I just walked/limped and texted Lisa to let her and the gang know. She said if I wanted they’d wait for me at the Grand Army Plaza entrance which is actually only 2.5 miles from where we began and we could just head back to her house and not finish the 5K. What a great group of friends! They gave up finishing their race for me. (it was a fun run so no timing chips or medals or anything but still I was very happy they did that). It took me an hour to walk those couple of miles. We headed out of the park and straight to the farmer’s market where everyone got some goodies. I got a gluten-free apple pie.
pretty much killed the entire pie (it was smaller than a regular size but bigger than those single serve minis)
Body & Soul Gluten-Free and Vegan goodies
Then we walked a few blocks down for coffee and eventually back to Lisa’s before I headed home and immediately started icing!
So what does all this mean? It means I’m trying to make a dr. appointment ASAP. I’m still thinking it’s tendonitis but with such intense pain when I tried running again after breakfast I really got worried and started to think about other things like, eeek…. fractures. (I’ve since calmed myself down from the ledge). I know this could mean weeks of PT and rest and that means my half marathon next weekend is in jeopardy but I refuse to go beyond that. I’m also trying to devise a plan for cross-training that won’t aggravate the ankle because I feel like a slug right now. And hey, maybe this will be the catalyst to get me to focus on upper body and core strength training that i’ve been neglecting since forever.
Well, I’m late for my pity party! Catch ya later.
Question: Injuries…how do you cope? any miracle therapies to suggest? Have you ever had to bail on a race you paid for because of an injury?
I’m still not running. Almost went out for a few today but decided to stretch and foam roll instead. So basically I’ve been walking.
I took the dog to the beach for a walk and caught a lovely sunset on Tuesday night.
Sunset and a doodle
sally seashore selfie
It was quite relaxing…up until the point I found a tick crawling on Duncan. Luckily I grabbed it while it was still on the outer fur and not attached and feeding. EEEEWWW!
Yesterday was a commuting-disaster-busy-day-at-work sandwich! Both my morning and my evening commutes were 2+ hours a piece (more than double normal time). I was so grateful that I went to the beach and caught that sunset the night prior. I planned to just crash when I got home last night but then my friend Lenny invited me over to see his new puppy and catch up a bit.
Ludo now has a baby sister Lucy. She’s a cutie.
This morning I took Duncan to the vet for some routine booster shots. Since we were hopping right in the car I didn’t put his leash on. He stepped over the threshold but turned around and looked at me as if to say “hey you forgot to put my leash on”.
where’s the leash
I spent the rest of the morning and most of the afternoon cleaning out the garage, and eating carbs. I’m just in a funk lately. Carbs are not the answer but since I don’t know what the answer is I’ll keep eating the carbs. LOL!
Luckily my friend Doreen texted me that she would love to meet up to walk the dogs. Perfect. Therapy and exercise for all!
doodle and his dogues
All the rain we had flooded the path a bit and although Duncan hates water he trudged through the puddle begrudgingly. It was pretty foggy and the boats that were sailing past had loud fog horns that seemed to get Duncan a bit unsettled. I don’t blame him. Those horns are loud. We spent an hour and a half walking and hanging out a bit on the beach. It was just what the doctor ordered.
Only negative was the hour I spent pulling burrs out of Duncan’s paws. They really got tangled in his fur.
I realized I had no food in the house for dinner so I ordered chinese food.
normal that I write what I’m going to order on the menu? I do it EVERY TIME!
After dinner I just relaxed with none other than my love…
too tired to play fetch
And I need to perform emergency repair on a finger nail that broke really low! AHHHH! The sky is falling!!!!
Saturday morning I’m running a 5k with some of my running peeps. It’ll be my test to see how the ankle is doing. I’m really hoping it feels good…I’ve been in a funk and really need to run.
Well, clock just struck midnight so I’m off to dreamland.
Question: Any suggestions for how to handle my broken nail. Anyone else feel like they’re in a funk lately? Too early to discuss weekend plans? What are y’all doing?
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